I look forward to doing this adventure with all!! I'm 43 orginally from Indiana, lived in Memphis for 25 years, met a very special someone and relocated to New Jersey. I have always been chunky kind of always told I was big boned.. but now I'm just fat... Ukkie .Dont get me wrong I LOVE myself I just don't like myself.. I'm so so so tired of the "if you lost weight you would be" I don't know if I would be but I wanna be not only attractive but healthy.. My mom passed away at 48 that was 11 years ago I'm now 43 and scared. She was petite and died from different illnesses but I am the biggest in my entire clan and that sucks!!
Life is short anyway and I don't wanna assist it by cutting my own throat buy not eating right, bowing to the fast food and cola industry. I'm not a sweet eater but I am a soda holic and chipper. I suffer from maybe pre diabt., I'm afraid to get my cholestrol checked cause I'm a "Frydaddy" but getting a physical this week to see all my damages so I can over come and see my difference..
This transformation will kill me, but I'VE GOT TO DO IT!! I will be doing things I have NEVER done to save my life. I do NOT eat anything Green... I do not eat anything out of the water but I am going to learn to eat right to LIVE..
I am with a wonderful man that loves me for me, but I hurt US by my insecurities in myself. It doesn't help when people make remarks about " how lucky I am looking at me to have someone like him to want me" Really I am a good person or remarks about "if he doesn't eat it I can" ... Funny thing is I barely eat not to starve myself but I am just never really hungry, my mistake is snack here or drink there and 1 real meal a day. I know it's not healthy it's just been me always... I had gotten sick and had to take steroids for the longest which did not help my plight but ya know it is what it is.. My Pooh Bear has asked me many times to marry him and I just couldn't I didn't want to like this I want him to have the woman he deserves and I don't or didn't feel it is me so I have to change my life and today is that day..